What are my goals for the future?

What IS a goal? How long does it take to fill ones goal(s)? What drives people to accomplish their goals? I would say that every person in this world has a goal they hope to see accomplished in their mortal life. Some live their life with many goals to achieve. On the rare occasion you find a person that has goals throughout their entire life and never accomplish them all, but try their hardest and never give up on what they want in live. There is a great variety of goals in my life: Short, long, and eternal.

September 4th

I have never really cared much for birthdays. To me a birthday was just another day that one became a day older in life and that there wasnt that much special deal to it. Just as pretty much everything else in my life, I have come to be humbled and to find myself in a repentant state. I never realized how much a birthday can mean to a person. Now perhaps it was just the fact that it had been 5-6 years since a real birthday has come along but it didnt take long to realize how special of a day it means to my Valeria. It wasn't hard to realize how much it REALLY meant to her when on Wednesday she told me, many times, the mail had come while she was out picking up her niece from school and they had left a package notice. She was very excited to see what has awaiting for her birthday, but had to wait another day to see what it was. When I called her after getting out of class on Thursday, it really hit me when it was the VERY FIRST thing that she said when I called her "I already got the package.. Should I open it?" As I could tell from her great joy of even receiving a box for her birthday, I said yes. It was as though sorrow and pain were never a part of life when she started opening her presents. I mainly wish I could have been there to see her open them and see the expresions on her face, alas, I know that there are many more birthdays ahead that I can surprise her and have GREAT moments of joy. Next to Valeria I was one of the happiest people on earth at the time. Her joy overflows my heart with tears of joy and happiness, it was perhaps one of the greatest moments in our courtship. I never realized how small and simple things bring great things to pass in this form.

I have learned so many new and wonderful things because of Valeria and her happy occasions in life, she has taught me, perhaps, more than anyone else about how to be happy and life a great life. I have also learned from these occasions that if she is THAT happy when she gets a good birthday, or little thoughtful reminders... that if I happen to forget for even a second of how important she and her life are to me, she will quickly remind of such important facctors of life. It was also great to the the important of life and being brought into this world. Had she not been born on that day to that family, Soto that is, then perhaps we might not have ever crossed paths and all the great and bad times we have had would not be a part of my life. You can argue that I would have found someone else in another part of the world that would have done the same, perhaps more or less. I do not really believe so, perhaps I might have found another, however, my life might have been a bit different than what it is, and was, when i found Valeria. I would have been molded into someone else to meet the needs of another, I would not have the same experiences that I have with Valeria. All the things we have done and been through mean everything to me. I am glad God molded me to fit the needs of Valeria, I just hope and pray that my body will continue to mold and form with hers. I love her with all my heart and hope to be with her for ETERNITY!

Four Months of Happiness

Today, 8/19/09, has taken a meaning on that it has never meant before. Approximately 5 months ago something terribly right happen in my life. While squandering through life, passing to and fro, stop and go, something came across my path that I had never had come across before. It was, and is, quite a different life since 'that' passed by me. Many times in my life when certain goods cross my path, I tend to keep pacing along. As time goes by I perceive that I made a mistake, big or small, that I should have turned around for a brief moment to seize that which passed by. After years and years of 'passers' I have finally learned me lesson to not let everything just go by without a fight. I was not expecting her to pass by at this particular time in my life, in fact, I did not anticipate that it would ever happen. Though I was, and am, not prepared for this I knew I could not let her go away without me. I knew after one look that it was over and she was mine. So for the past four months as of today, Ms. Valerie Soto has been by my side walking with me, grabbing and turning for only the necessities that we need to make our relationship grow and progress. We are not perfect, well she is, and we have, at times, had to face hardships that would seem impossible at only four months of courtship. Nevertheless, it came to pass that that we fight for our homogeneity and did press forward striving to keep Christ as our center and focus of the relationship. I cannot mention ALL the things that Valeria, jaja, has done for me. I would like to mention a few so that she knows that she has made a Hercules difference in my life, now see if you can figure what I actually mean by Hercules. As well, I mention it so that if she ever feels like she has done nothing of virtue in my life, it can be a gift of support and growth for her. Valerie has accompanied me through my very tough times and has never lost faith or trust in me, as far as I know. She has endured well my weaknesses and imperfections, and has exhorted me to change for me the best. Her faith, virtue, knowledge, temperance, kindness have led my life into who I am trying to become. Her love has always been there for me no matter the circumstance, especially that night I got lost trying to find her. Valerie is guiding my path to learning Nicaraguan Spanish. She has attended to my lack of faith and testimony through her amazing Spirit. Valerie has sculptured my confidence, empowered my courage, and molded my spirit. I was not lying when I said I would only mention a few. These are nothing compared to what see has fully done for my life within the past four months. She means everything to me and hope that our goals and dreams will not be crushed by my stupidity and imperfections. I wish her to know that I love her and care about her from head to toe. I would give anything to be the man she actually thinks I am. I guess I am just so much cooler online eh? From the innermost part of my spirit, I thank you and love you Valerie. I only hope and pray that I can do for her what she has done for me and then some.

The Beginning

"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth... And God said let us make man in our image, after our likeness... So God created man in his own image... male and female created he them... And the Lord said it is not good that man should be alone, I will make an help meet for him." -Genesis 1:1,26-27;2:18
In this world there are times when we are alone and have none to rely upon, at others there are those that God puts into our lives to be an help meet, or a friend, or even an influential spokesman. Many of us must endure one of the hardest parts of life, loneliness. Even the greatest of us all, Christ the Lord, has had to feel loneliness, not only of man but of God himself just so he would know "according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities". We wonder why so many things happen to us in this life that put our faith and beliefs on the line, many of us ask why God allows 'ME' to suffer so much if He loves so. We go through live, at times, without Him when things are going great and give no gratitude no great thanks to Whom it belongs and then when something goes bad we are quick to turn more so against the Lord. We shortly realize why this Earth was even created. Man fell that the purposes of God might be fulfilled.
All who come into this life are not meant to be alone or desolate. We yearn for a belonging and a purpose of life. Many search and find things that temporarily fill but do not satisfy nor stay and must be repeated to fill the hole, which only seems to get bigger with every refill. We go through side streets, corners, red lights, and secret passages only to find the end result left us further away from our destination then where we started.
I am an example of one of these people indicated above. I took many paths in a orchard only to find myself in the jungle of a rain forest. I have struggled to find my place, my way, my purpose. I found myself alone, lost, never to find... but in the end, I was found by the findings of another.... "an help meet" if you will.
In this Genesis of my life, I took a great beating from the many ineptitude's of agency. I made what I thought, at the time, was the way for me to go. A way that only led to much distress, fear, hatred, and... inevitable forlornness.
In March of 2009, ALL this changed by the companionship of the best girl I have ever met, Valerie Natalia Soto. A woman I never thought possible to come into a life like mine. Within only a few months of courtship, she has helped me change who I am more than anything, save the Gospel of Jesus Christ, else on this earth. She and the Lord have molded me into who I am at this time, and I know will continue to mold and alchemy. Had it not been for the true grace of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and His Church this fantastic woman would never have come into my life. I owe my Saviour everything for His Atonement, life, and ministry. Thanks be to God for His mercy in giving me Valerie. I also owe my everything to Valerie for all she has already done for me. There are many things I could say and brag about her, which I will do in another post, but to summarize everything in a few simple but most heart felt words are these: "Thank You".